Well, today is another day, another throbbing aching jaw day but on the plus side, my 7 year old has been sleeping in her own bed now for more than 2 weeks and got herself ready for school this morning rather than making one of us do it for her.

It's another day in paradise.

My husband is downstairs hunting the wily job, and hoping to hear back from some he's already sent in stuff for. I'm hoping too. He needs to work and get back that carefree person I married. But that's part of marriage, it's not just the good times, but the bad times and we muddle through.

I think that's what makes a good marriage, the fact that you don't just walk away when the going gets tough but instead, you find your way through the tough parts together. That's what is working for us. Love is a basis but there is also the caring and desire to work through the bad stuff that is needed as well. We keep that going. I really didn't know how wonderful he was till I was having a horrible bad patch and he stuck by me through it all. So now, he's the one in the bad patch and I know that I want to be there with him, pulling him through it.

It also helps that we have a great friend, Paul, he helps us both through some of the tough times. Even when he has his own negative moments, he will bend over backwards to help his friends. That is a true friend. I hope we will be there for him just like he is for us. You know... that really sounds almost like another kind of marriage. I guess if you want to be a best friend, it is that way. It's not that you have to be there, but rather you want to be there no matter what and help your friend through the tough times.

My daughter is one of the lights of my life, the other being my grown son. He's doing great and his dad has finally remarried to a wonderful young lady who I am grateful is there for him and helping him to find his inner sensitive guy.

Small Joys

I was sort of sitting here, in pain from a dry socket. The horrors of having a tooth extracted. It occurred to me that as my family sits here with me, watching How to Train Your Dragon, that the world could use more positive things. So my positive thought for the day is that there are people in the world who are far worse off than I am. So pain or not, it's just a moment in time that will pass. So I'm finding the joy of the moment, being here with my family, everyone enjoying a moment of time as we watch together.

I think it's sort of the thing that could get a person through most things in life. To remember that there is joy is the small things. Joy in the moment. I wonder what small joy tomorrow will bring.

Stress

Well, another day, another stress. Just what your average person suffering with Depression doesn't need.

We have Dani's appt for her testing set for next week on Tuesday Morning. I hope they can figure out ways to help her focus more and settle in. Not to mention like school again. She's been a bit down about it lately.

I'm just having one of those days, I looked at our budget and it was pretty bleak for me. But I suppose things will get better at some point.

Well this has been a busy holiday. Visitors are never easy when you have serious Chronic depression and social anxiety. But at least these visitors were special people in our lives. My In-laws. They are amazing. My father-in-law brought me my dresser that he custom built. I'll have to get a picture of it so people can see his amazing work.

My daughter Dani has a great christmas. Santa was quite good to her and so was everyone else. She's my angel. She was so adorable with her presents, the opening and then her two faves, her new Guitar and a Bereunger Doll.

I felt like it was a difficult time from the depression standpoint. My medicications aren't working all that well and I'm set to start therapy again. Hopefully that with my medications will help more.

Today I was napping and having bizarre dreams. I'll have to write some of them down sometime. They are interesting.