Well, today is another day, another throbbing aching jaw day but on the plus side, my 7 year old has been sleeping in her own bed now for more than 2 weeks and got herself ready for school this morning rather than making one of us do it for her.

It's another day in paradise.

My husband is downstairs hunting the wily job, and hoping to hear back from some he's already sent in stuff for. I'm hoping too. He needs to work and get back that carefree person I married. But that's part of marriage, it's not just the good times, but the bad times and we muddle through.

I think that's what makes a good marriage, the fact that you don't just walk away when the going gets tough but instead, you find your way through the tough parts together. That's what is working for us. Love is a basis but there is also the caring and desire to work through the bad stuff that is needed as well. We keep that going. I really didn't know how wonderful he was till I was having a horrible bad patch and he stuck by me through it all. So now, he's the one in the bad patch and I know that I want to be there with him, pulling him through it.

It also helps that we have a great friend, Paul, he helps us both through some of the tough times. Even when he has his own negative moments, he will bend over backwards to help his friends. That is a true friend. I hope we will be there for him just like he is for us. You know... that really sounds almost like another kind of marriage. I guess if you want to be a best friend, it is that way. It's not that you have to be there, but rather you want to be there no matter what and help your friend through the tough times.

My daughter is one of the lights of my life, the other being my grown son. He's doing great and his dad has finally remarried to a wonderful young lady who I am grateful is there for him and helping him to find his inner sensitive guy.

Small Joys

I was sort of sitting here, in pain from a dry socket. The horrors of having a tooth extracted. It occurred to me that as my family sits here with me, watching How to Train Your Dragon, that the world could use more positive things. So my positive thought for the day is that there are people in the world who are far worse off than I am. So pain or not, it's just a moment in time that will pass. So I'm finding the joy of the moment, being here with my family, everyone enjoying a moment of time as we watch together.

I think it's sort of the thing that could get a person through most things in life. To remember that there is joy is the small things. Joy in the moment. I wonder what small joy tomorrow will bring.

Stress

Well, another day, another stress. Just what your average person suffering with Depression doesn't need.

We have Dani's appt for her testing set for next week on Tuesday Morning. I hope they can figure out ways to help her focus more and settle in. Not to mention like school again. She's been a bit down about it lately.

I'm just having one of those days, I looked at our budget and it was pretty bleak for me. But I suppose things will get better at some point.

Well this has been a busy holiday. Visitors are never easy when you have serious Chronic depression and social anxiety. But at least these visitors were special people in our lives. My In-laws. They are amazing. My father-in-law brought me my dresser that he custom built. I'll have to get a picture of it so people can see his amazing work.

My daughter Dani has a great christmas. Santa was quite good to her and so was everyone else. She's my angel. She was so adorable with her presents, the opening and then her two faves, her new Guitar and a Bereunger Doll.

I felt like it was a difficult time from the depression standpoint. My medicications aren't working all that well and I'm set to start therapy again. Hopefully that with my medications will help more.

Today I was napping and having bizarre dreams. I'll have to write some of them down sometime. They are interesting.

When it rains it pours

Well, the last several days have been a bit weird. I found out I had pneumonia and then my blood pressure was way up. Oh well, a few visits to the doc and new meds and I'm doing great again. Spent yesterday doing not much but baking a fab double chocolate decadence bundt cake with homemade chocolate glaze. That was cool. It came out great and in the shape of a castle. A good friend too pictures, I'll have to see if I can get a link up here. It was great fun for me and my daughter who helped by getting the eggs ready and putting them in, then pouring the cake into the pan and decorating it with her princess style.
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Today I went to see "The Blind Side" and I'm telling you, anyone who wants to see a movie that will make you feel good inside, should go see this. It points out troubles in our everyday world and also shows that there are people out there willing to go the extra mile to make it better for others. I was so touched by the feelings it evoked in me. Then it was off to WallyWorld for a bit of shopping and finding a few of my baby's christmas presents. Got a few things and got ready for a day of cookie baking to come soon.

It has been a great few days.

What a Morning....

Well another day and oh well, the flu has gotten me. It's really not too good a feeling but then again, there are many worse possibilities. This too shall pass.

So, what do you think, our usual wonderful weekend party is off. Can't handle that today. I'm just going to wrap up in my blankie, snuggle in my big chair and rest. Take dayquil and drink lots. And maybe treat myself to a nice pumpkin muffin. Yeah... that sounds good.

Talked to my BFF Paul this morning, you know... he's just this guy.... but really he's not, he's a great guy who always tries to help everyone else, sometimes to his own detriment. He's someone I'm really privileged to have in my life. He might come over and be miserable with me. Just something to do together you know. :P

Need to talk to my other BFF Katie this mornin, so we can plot for next week.

New Moon... Wow

Well I just returned from seeing the 2nd Movie in the Twilight Series, New Moon. And... Wow. The movie was just great, though I have to admit, if I had a choice between, tall, pale and cold skinned and tall dark and buff and a heat brick.... I'd maybe have a tougher choice than Bella apparently does. Cause Jacob is.... *psssssst* HOT.

I won't go into details because there are likely many people out there who are planning to see this and I wouldn't want to spoil it for them. I find it really intriguing that I could enjoy these movies so much more than I enjoyed the books. I may try and read them again after seeing the movies.

Finished there and picked up my Kindergartner and then some pizza and home again. It's always nice to have an afternoon and such that goes well. Tonight is a meeting with Girl Scout Mom's and working on meeting ideas. That should be fun. Tomorrow.... well that's our Game day around here. We have several friends come over, we play games and eat... usually my "gourmet" hubby does the cooking and it's fab-u-lous.

Talk to you soon....
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